Something to think about

I'm watching a film staring Heath Ledger and I think about two weeks before he died. He bummed a ciggy off of me outside of my apartment and was humble and kind. As I walked away shivering with delight at his beauty, I thought ...man it would be really amazing to wake up beside that man every day. Maybe someday I can sit down with him and at least have small talk. I wish I would have done what I wanted to. Kidnap him and cuff him to my bed....what if I followed through with that plan?